My Character blogs
I am a Photographer, I adopted Alex from Rwanda. My wife Meg died and it had a big effect on my daughter Alex. Meg was the light that shines bright in my heart and when she died....... when she died she ripped my soul as well I live in Hamstead in London, In a big house on his own which is lonely and I always feel alone. I have been doing wedding Photographs for friends because my wife dieing has such a big impact on my life because I gave up the opportunity to have my own exhibition however, I don't really want to do it.I am very proud of Alex, I am around 50 maybe. I guess I am well traveled and a very cultured man, Vietnam is a place where I went to take Photographs and it gives me nightmares on the things I saw and the things that happened in that terrible place. I have a feeling that it is going to scar me for life, i find it really hard to sleep at night and sometimes oi wake up screaming.
People describe me as a very Sad, Annoyed , fat, Angry and very defensive however, I dont belive what they are saying is true. I will describe my self as fat, heavy, lonely, feels alone,caring and very defensive. I am a White British man, I love cheese so much without cheese I am nothing. I am not proud of all of the decisions I have made in my life time like taking that picture of Alex with the dead people in Rwanda and not being able to take Simon with however, I only didn't take him with me because he was to old to come and he saw what i did.
Simon remember what i did however, Alex was to young to remember. Therefore, it was safer and smarter to take just only Alex and not Simon. But I feel Simon is going to try find Alex and I, To make me regret the bad decisions I have made by not bringing Simon and taken her away from him but I felt she will be better off with me since she had no parents anymore, I did the right thing didn't I, didn't I.
when I was talking to Alex, i don't think I should of said "Maybe your mother put them there" because her mother is died and i think that really hurt her.. well that's another stupid thing I always do.. why didn't i think? , how does she feel right now? am so stupid sometimes oh my days. My poor Alex.
I also told her that "I went in the church, I saw the bodies, I saw you and I took shot. I heard the Interhamwe coming. I picked you up and ran." This is the type of amazing, nice, Enjoyable, sweat, mouth watering Au fromage that i love so much, almost as much as my Daughter Alex.
